That's the Thing About Bear Attacks, They Come When You Least Expect It.

This week I have really been feeling the spiritual attacks that I've been hearing so much about. Wow, they are all that I thought they would be and more. Since commissioning chapel I have been thinking really bizarre things about ISP. Like that I don't belong on my team and it was really silly that I applied in the first place. I mostly kept these things to myself and they have really been wearing me down emotionally. Last night I told my team and my sister and I started asking for prayer with a little bit more boldness than usual. I was assured that those thoughts are ridiculous. Aside from these destructive internal thoughts, I'm also struggling relationally. That's the hardest. I really hate conflict without purpose, particularly when it's with a person that I care so much about. I've totally had to just give that relationship over to the Lord because it's become more than I'm capable of dealing with all on my own. Last night we also had a girl on our team drop out of ISP. This is going to have a lot of repercussions as we are getting ready to leave. I'm very much aware that the enemy would love nothing more than to tear down not only me but my team and the country that we are going to serve. You know what? I'm standing firm. I'm going on ISP and God is going to do amazing things regardless of how broken I might feel right now, because our God is mighty and just and loving and there is a people group that needs to hear all about it.

We use God's mighty weapons, not mere worldly weapons, to knock down the Devil's strongholds. -2 Corinthians 10:4 (NLT)

These will make war with the Lamb, and the Lamb will overcome them, for He is Lord of lords and King of kings; and those who are with Him are called, chosen, and faithful. -Revelation 17:14

He will swallow up death forever! The Sovereign Lord will wipe away all tears. He will remove forever all insults and mockery against his land and people. The Lord has spoken! -Isaiah 25:8

But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. -2 Corinthians 15:57